First actual blog post on my new blog.. ooooh this is exciting!
This summer has been filled with so much joy, love, and learning. God has not let this time past without teaching me what it is like to trust Him and to be committed to our relationship.
Last fall during my DTS, I went to church and listened to a sermon about being “all in for God”. I laughed then only because the pastor repeated the phrase “Go all in” about 400 times during the service. At that moment I figured everyone got his point, but almost six months later, I am finally understanding his point.
Being in a relationship with God and walking out a christ like lifestyle is a everyday choice that takes commitment. In order to have a strong foundation you need to go all in, everyday, through the good and the bad. You have to commit yourself and remain faithful. Through our faithfulness, we give God the opportunity to reveal Himself in news ways and we are able to recognize His hand in our life.
I am obviously not married, but I like to compare my relationship with God to a marriage or a relationship. From what I’ve observed and learned as a single, third party (third wheel) individual to different relationships, including marriage, I’ve noticed that they all take commitment, time to develop and strengthen, and a lot of trust. When you remain faithful through the good and bad, your relationship strengthen, but you need to be all in, all the time.
God doesn't make sense most of the time. He is more counter-culture then I am, and that is saying something. My decision to move to Montana has been a test of my relationship with God. About a month ago, I had a huge wave of doubt about this decision. I was hit with the truth of all the things that were stacked up against my life choices. But in the end, I stood by my decision to go to Montana, even if it didn't make sense. Only reasoning was because God had told me to go. It may not make sense on paper, but God has a plan. When I put my trust in Him I feel His love, I see His grace and mercy, and I become more confident in who I am and what I am here to do. If I didn’t take the time to get to know God, trust Him, and remain faithful I wouldn't know where I would be.
In the book Abba’s Child by Brennan Manning, he writes
“In out willingness to stand fast, our refusal to run away and escape into self-destructive
behavior, we are able to see the life-giving spirit of the risen Lord. Resurrection power enables us to engage in the savage confrontation with untamed emotions, to accept the pain, receive it, take it on board, however acute it may be. And in the process we discover that we are not alone, that we can stand fast in awareness of resent ripeness and so become fuller, deeper, richer disciples. We know ourselves to be more that we previously imagined. In the process we not only endure but are forced to expand the boundaries of who we think we really are!”
Being faithful to God and trusting His word takes a lot of courage. If we were one foot in with God we could back out at any moment. leaving us confused and hurt. When we removed ourselves from God, we take away our ability to see God through the trails. We take away His chance to take the bad and make it good. If we commit ourselves to God, just like a good husband or wives committees to their husband, you work through the trials. Through each hardship comes strength within the relationship. It has stood the test, taught us a lesson, and given us a chance to heal and grow. Choosing God everyday is not the easiest choice, and sometimes it doesn't make sense, but the blessings on the other side of trust and courage is everything you are looking for.
God has revealed all of this through past relationships and moments that allow me to notice how far I have come and the strength I have gained. I am overwhelmed with love and joy when I feel Gods presence in my life. It’s been a beautiful journey and I am excited to see where God takes me next.